enraged and frustrated

life seems to really enjoy making cruel jokes, waving what could be the savior of my situation in front of my face. and once hope has set in, then either the situation stagnates and nothing moves, or life simply just withdraw what might have helped, leaving me there, frustrated. that's what i call a cruel joke.

and that has just happened on the job front. now i'm just waiting, because nothing moved, everything stagnates...

grrrrrr